LILY ALLEN- SMILE

When you first left me
I was wanting more.
But you were fucking that girl next door
What'd you do that for?

When you first left me
I didn't know what to say.
I'd never been on my own that way,
Just slept by myself all day.

I was so lost back then,
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end.
And now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
It's only because you're feeling alone.

At first when I see you cry
Yeah, it makes me smile.
Yeah, it makes me smile.
At worst I feel bad for awhile
But then I just smile.
I go ahead and smile.

Whenever you see me
You say that you want me back.
And I tell you it don't mean jack,
No it dont mean jack.

I couldn't stop laughing
No I just couldn't help myself.
See you messed up my mental health
I was quite unwell.

I was so lost back then,
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end.
But you're calling me up on the phone
Just to have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone.

At first when I see you cry
Yeah, it makes me smile.
Yeah, it makes me smile.
At worst I feel bad for awhile
But then I just smile.
I go ahead and smile.

i havent updated for aagesss ! how odd .. its cuz im addicted to MYSPACE yo !

anywayz ... Melbourne high formal in 2 days ! am getting excited now ! =D ... was suppose to go dance practice with nathan 2nite but couldnt go cuz aint freeeee -___-" . last nite he said it was on thursday which i could easily make it but not 2nite niggaz ! YES THEY HAVE DANCE PRACTICE FOR A FORMAL ! HAHA  ... amazing ! im wearing my pink dress i wore from my party so atleast im putting good use out of it.  went & bought a thankyou present for him which is a Ralph Lauren Polo Blue gift set ... i spent like a good hour going around smelling all the mens fragrance and spraying dem on cards & now i smell like a MAN ! haha .. but some are niceeee smelling so i dont mind ! ;)

speaking of dance practices ... ive been dance practicing for rachels cotillion .. should be exciting . doing the swing & waltz ! haha imma have a collection of pink & purple dresses now thanks to cotillions =D

well im off ... have to go 2 the photographers place to see my photos from my 18th ! =D

i need to write crap here . so sorry if this is deep & meaningful but i like wriitng shit out

i dont know wat i would do without one of my best guy friends ever. im happy that theres a good chance hes going to go after year 12 & explore everything that life has to offer. im happy that hes gonna do what i probably never will. i AM happy for him. but deep inside i feel so ... sad ... (cant think of a good word) that theres a good chance hes gonna leave me behind & i know that ive clingged on to him so much for the past year & no matter how much we frustrate each other sometimes, he means so much to mee !


<edited> 23rd June 12:42 am

far out mannn .. just got home ! had  the best time 2dai ! 13 hours in the cityyy ! w0ahhhh ! had awesome time with phoebe&stuart .. haha so heres a ran down on what went on 2dai

- met up @ 9:30am
- felt awfully dressed up wearing my polka dot dress & stockings & boots & red belt
- went to state library to study ! haha brought so much books. ended up doing one hour of work ! poo haha
- remind me never to wear boots wen going to the library ! they are so noisy
- phoebe went on a "hang out" thing & so me & stuart had a whole day to tour melb
- got lost .. many times
- hugged trees & took photos at Carlton Gardens
- witnessed girl on girl kissing from randoms ! =o
- went to melb museum .. for FREE !
- stood out in the rain & missed the FREE shuttle bus
- stood out in the rain to wait for next shuttle bus
- took random photos while waiting
- went on the shuttle bus & took MORE photos
- walked & got lost in the city & had lunch
- met up with phoebe again & gossiped
- went to the Basement to try on clothes
- took random photos with manequins doing god knows what ! haha
- people looked at us oddly
- had starbuckssss ! stuart got FREE drink ! no fair haha
- crossed the road from starbucks to catch tram & ended up in a bar
- $2 DRINKS ! yeh baby ! haha
- mmm some1 got tipsy/drunk ..
- went back to melb central & waited for friends
- yeh ... hyponess ... got me worried
- went bowling with a group of like 30 ppl.
- i suck at bowling & lost
- went around walking around the city @ 10pm
- had krispy kreme on the way home
- went homeeeeee !

good day ! haha

im gonna be corny but i dont care ...

i want my leg to "pop" up when i get kisssssedd !! w0aaaaah ! haha

ok ok .. i watched THE PRINCESS DIARIES last nite & i have to admit i like that movie !

& one of the main characters is HOT !! &

FOR YOU I WILL - TEDDY GEIGER

I'm wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will, For you I will

For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would

That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you, yeah

For you I will

YAY FOR SHOPPING !

yeh i bought stuff yesterday with mummmsy ! so happy

- black&white polka dot dress
- fish net stockings
- black jeans
- yellow & white singlet top
- green top
- blue bolero
- light brown coat

YAY EXAMS IS FINALLY OVERRRR !!!!!

BLOODY BEEN STRESSED OUT FOR THE PAST 2-3 WEEKS & NOW ITS ALL COME TO BIOLOGY BEING THE HARDEST THING IVE EVER DONE ; PSYCH BEING EASY & GAT BEING A WASTE OF TIME

EITHER WAY .. ITS ALL OVER ! =D

anywayz feels likei havent updated for agessss !

.... so wats happened in my life ? nothing much really.

- saw oediepus rex on satdai
- saw STICK IT with quinny yesterdai nite
- went 2 southland / chaddy / mordialloc beach / my house with phoebe . mel & age on tuesday . that was good ! kindda sucks going shopping when you have NO money ! haha but Gloria Jeans was good ! =D and subwoofers in car and being deaf is fun too ! haha . beach water is COLD ! but the beach is nice in winter times
- felt like i got stood up today . i swear sometimes i feel this isnt gonna work ! -___-"
- stressed out over my party ... organising it & stuff ... mmmmm
- i need to party & drink up ... ! mmmm i do still have my vodka cruisers in le fridge
- i want to go to Death Cab for Cutie concert <3

peace out !

i love music from THE OC / ONE TREE HILL / SCRUBS / SMALLVILLE



HOWIE DAY- COLLIDE

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

I'm open, your closed
Where I'll follow you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
Somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide

ACK !

one 0f my boob is bigger than the other !

..... bleeeeh !! not good for my bras ! 0-o

that is all

PANIC TIME!!!

bio & psych exam soo soon  ! & have i studied?! HELL NO !
AOS2 still needs to be done for psych
100+ pages on bio still needs to be done
CRAPOLAAAAaa !

FALL AT YOUR FEET - JAMES BLUNT (CROWDED HOUSE COVER)

I'm really close tonight
And I feel like I'm moving inside her
Lying in the dark
And the thing that I'm beginning to know of
Let it go
I'll be there when you call
And whenever I fall at your feet
Do let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

You're hiding from me now
There's something in the way that you're talking
Words don't sound right
But I hear them all moving inside you
go now
I'll be there when you call
And whenever I fall at your feet
Do let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I'm more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help
Who knows where that might lead
I fall

The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I'm more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help
Who knows where that might lead
I fall at your feet

anywayz .. yeh tired ! woke up early today ; went to church & den to the career expo with nick. got good free stuff like pens & rules (i love stationary). went to the city to have late lunch & bubble cup .. scary woman scared me ! bleeeh !!

after that went to a family friends 50th birthday ; (i jus got home)

OMG!!!

RANDY WAS THERE! ... i havent seen him for ages and rachel was like "h0oi... randy is there ! go say hi" but i got scared so i got katt to come & say hi with me. anna & rachel were at the back laughing at me ... ! poo ! ... mg ... soooooooo awkward ! cuz i got really shy and i didnt know wat we could talk about and it ended up him & katt talking most of the time and me just smiling. & then my friends came with some gossip and i started going crazy like a school girl so then he probably thought i was weird ! & so we spent the rest of the night smiling and looking at each other with no connection bleh except for wen he came to me and said that hes going cuz he was bored and gave me a kiss of the cheek and a hug.

OMG!!!

i want things to be the way it was before we grew up & parted ways. the late night fone calls and the d&ms and bleeeeeh ! bleh but its jus so awkward now !

*sigh*

other news ... bkode performed. hotness ...


i should go to bed!

peee esss ; i dont like beer @ all .. except wen i had light beer tonite & came to the conclusion that it indeed is good

im cold

brrrrrrrr .. i hate the winter ! & i dont like my winter uniform & i dont like getting sick ; which ive got a cold =( ... & i want STARBUCKS now !!!

been doing hw all day .. arent i a smart one. going out 2moz all day & wont be home till late so yeh. going 2 career expo den a family friends 50th.

my mummsy is gonee ! she left for the philippines this morning & shes going for 3 weeks. this wasnt a planned trip & she only got her booking on thursday. guess it was urgent cuz of my grandmas situation ... mmmm ... wat am i gonna do without my mummm ! *cries* ; its only been one day and i swear the house is already a mess and ive been home all day alone and bleh i hate it ! oh yeh .. this is gonna be the 2nd yr we wont be celebrating mothers day again ... mmm

other news ... my invitations have comee ! im just putting the finishing touches & it you should be getting them soon people. i cant wait for my beedai ! hehe

<3 me

This is The Guilty Game. Next to the questions, put your answers as either guilty or innocent. Guilty if you have, innocent if you haven't. Re-post and see what others have or have not done!

given a hickey?:
guilty

Singing in the shower?:
guilty

Spit in someone's Drink?:
guilty

Played with Barbie?:
guilty

Made someone cry?:
guilty

Opened your Christmas presents early?:
guilty

Lied to a friend?:
guilty

Broken a bone?:
innocent

Seen "Harold and Kumar" more than 10 times?:
innocent

Played a Computer game for more than 5 hours?:
guilty

Ran through the sprinklers naked?:
innocent

Went outside naked?:
innocent

Flashed somebody?:
innocent

Mooned somebody?:
innocent

Been on stage?:
guilty

Been on stage naked or close to it?
innocent

Been in a parade?:
innocent

Been in a school production?:
guilty

Gotten detention?:
guilty

Been on a plane:
guilty

Been on a cruise?:
innocent

Cheated on a test?:
guilty

Broken into a house?:
innocent

Gotten a tattoo?:
innocent

Gotten piercings?:
guilty

Gotten into a fist fight?:
innocent

Gotten into a shouting match?:
guilty

Swallowed sea/pool water?:
guilty

Spun yourself in circles to get dizzy on purpose?:
guilty

Laughed so hard it hurt?:
guilty

Tripped on your own feet?:
guilty

Cried yourself to sleep?:
guilty

Cried in public?:
guilty

Thrown up in public?:
innocent

Lied to your parents?:
guilty

Skipped class(es)?:
guilty

Cried so hard you threw up?:
innocent

Gone skinny dipping:
innocent

Skydived:
innocent

Gotten jealous:
guilty

Screamed so loud you lost your voice:
guilty

ey ... keep my grandma in your thoughts & prayers . shes not getting any better & its not looking too good =( ; much appreciated =]

Q: How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
A: mmmm 3 ; my parents . bros & den mine ! hehe

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: navy blue with white polka dots top

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
A: eat ! *hehe*

Q: Whats the color of your bedroom walls?
A: light purple ... oh so pretty !

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
A : mmmm $20 ! oh i need a job

Q: Whats your favorite sport?
A: tennis

Q: I cant wait till..?
A: jasmines 18th & mineeee !

Q: When was the last time you saw your dad?
A: 3 mins ago

Q: Who got you to join myspace?
A: findley =]

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: fish & chips ... good friday yall

Q: Is tom on your friends list?
A: yeh .. hahaha

Q: Look to your left. Whats there?
A: a door & the hall way and den another dooor .. creepy

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: my mums skirt .. we share clothes

Q: What website do you visit the most?
A: livejournal / ebay / myspace

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: mmmm ... fake roses ! =]

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: uhh ... no stomach .. ! ate so much food 2dai

Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
A: chelthenham

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: yesss! <3

Q: Whats your favorite starbucks drink?
A: the frappachinos hehe

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: uhh retreat ...

Q: Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
A: not anymore

Last..
1. Person you saw: jazzzy
2. Hugged: ... aimz
3. Shopped: the HB girls
4. IM: findley ?
5. Song you listened to: The Used - On mY Own

Today..
1. What are you doing now: this & staring at my dream photos <3
2. What are you doing tonight? sleeeep .. ok & hw
3. What are you going to eat for lunch: already had lunch !! poo face ! ha

Tomorrow..
1. Is: Easter Sunday
2. Got any plans: family day ! <3
3. Goal: to eat as much easter eggs as i can ! haha jkz
4. Dislikes: YOU ! no jkz ; cold weather
5. Do you have to work: u mean chores? nooo

Currently..
1. Love someone: YES! adam brody & jensen ackles! oh yeh baby *
2. Like someone: i like everyone ! they r my friends
3. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: poo no !
4. Does someone like you? you tell me
5. Missing someone? my HB girls who i saw 40 mins ago

i have an announcement to make ...

panic! at the disco is awesome !

that is all

mmmm ... nothing much in the land of katrina.

finished all 5 sats fairly successfully .. haha =/


- was suppose to go Krumped tonight .. but too cold & lazy to do anything ! bleh
- busy tomoz . youth group meeting & then going to a friend's grandmas beedai bash. i think its formal .. woo dress up again ! =]p~
- melbourne high social ! haha coolness
- mgoshness .. watched Freaky Friday & now have downlaoded Lindsay Lohan songs ! haha uber lameness .. which reminds me .. i wanna watch Mean Girls again
- english is poooo ! ive gone from a A student to a C student ...! fuck!

ok .. i need ideas for Creative Writing SAC which will be in due time but i need to start preparing ... so i was thinking

- movie review/analysis of my all time fave movie Cruel Intentions. Love that movie. was exposed to in yr 8 with very naive thinking ; now yr 12 with deeper understanding of themes & character development. God that movie is sex

- report on a disease/illness that ive learnt from health/bio

- a series of letters {event unknown}



im out .. chillax yo !